**HaPPy HaLLowEEn**

Nate and I had so much fun together this Halloween Season!  We went to Frightmares, haunted houses, tons of costume parties.  I absolutely LOVE Halloween.... and this year it has been hard because of our wedding.  Nonetheless, Halloween triumphed the wedding today!  Nate and I went out to my corporate office all dressed up and ate goodies :)

I am the luckiest girl in the entire world!  Nate Jorgensen is the most amazing man in the world!  We laugh with each other EVERYDAY,  I honestly believe that is what makes a great relationship.  Laughter!  I plan to laugh with him for eternity and I feel so lucky for that. 

On Saturday Winter Rowland and Crystal Ross threw me a Bridal Shower; themed shower the bride with gifts.  Cute huh?  I am excited to see the upcoming pictures!!!  Crystal took some amazing detail photos (which I finally learned what that meant)  ha ha. 

This Friday my family and I are headed to Manti to get my endowments out.  We are going to sleepover on Friday and then get up early Saturday to head to the temple.  My darling grandma finished my temple dress today.  I still cannot believe how lucky I am to have her.  She not only bought my dress, but all the supplies to go with it.  I feel so fortunate to have her in my life. 

2 weeks together... that's all it took.

If anyone has seen "Dear John" they will know what this means.  In 2 weeks from today I will be a MARRIED WOMAN!!!!

Oh it is ON!

I was finally able to meet with my oncologist on the 18th.  The appointment went really well!!  Nate and my mom came along with me and they were able to watch some more of my ear get removed for biopsy and watch me get my very 1st tattoo, ha ha.  It actually is just to trace the first Melanoma site to assure it does not spread elsewhere.  This dang cancer stuff is terrifying!  Gals and gents, please wear sunscreen!!!  The interesting thing is that I actually most likely did not get my Melanoma from the sun given I am not the "typical candidate" for skin cancer.  My oncologist explained that the majority of people with Melanoma are fair skinned, with several freckles; along with various moles on their back.  I do not fit into any of those categories thus meaning my cancer was instigated by other factors not including UV rays.  Nonetheless, I am so thrilled to finally have a plan of action in motion to get this gunk out of my system.  I was supposed to start treatment on the 18th, but because my doctor had to remove more of my ear I was not able to.  I will now allow time for this spot to heal and then I will return on the 28th to start treatment as well as get another tattoo :)  PS all of these tattoos will be removed post cancer.

As for wedding planning.... invites are out and arriving to their destinations.  We have set even more plans into motion for this special day!  My good friend Crystal (one of my bridesmaids) has been helping me do centerpieces for the tables (they are all going to be HOMEMADE).  My friend Ann is working hard on the skyline along with being 9 months preganant (bless her heart).  My cute sis has all of her dancers set to be our servers at the wedding and has arranged for the cutest little outfits for them to wear.  My mom is just amazing; enough said on that one.  All I can say is I am one lucky lady!!!!! 

I cannot wait for the moment when I get to marry Nate.  My fiancee' has been nothing short of amazing during this whole experience with cancer.  He was right on top with the insurance to make sure I would have double coverage for the surgery; along with providing SO much support to me.  Nate is truly my prince charming and he has made my life have true meaning to it.  We are super excited for our lives together! 

FoRwArD with FAITH!

On September 28th, 2011 I attended court for a company that I am involved with and lent several dollars to.  When I was 18 I decided to invest in a company ran by Dee Randall.  My mom also deposited a lot of money to ensure I would have a fancy wedding when the time came.  Unfortunately, Dee is skum and has been doing very fraudulent things with the investors money.  Upon leaving I had received a voicemail from the Dermatologist that removed a mole from my right ear.  I figured she was merely calling to state that everything was fine and dandy.  As soon as Amy (the doctor) answered the phone I knew that was not the case :(  She asked me to have my mom pull the car over and put the phone on speaker phone.  She informed us that I do in fact have melanoma cancer.  The second she said the word I cancer my brain completely shut off and I disconnected.  I have watched my darling grandma and step grandma; as well as my cute Aunt Jo die from cancer.  I HATE CANCER!!!  And being only 25 hearing that I had it scared me to death.  The next couple of hours I had so many questions and truly felt as if little bugs were crawling through out all my cells trying to take over my body.  My mom and I already had set appointments to show homes to a million dollar client and of course we rushed up there and tried to not think about the news we had just received.  I could not help the whole time from being entirely distracted by opportunities I may miss in my life, etc.  I kept thinking, "I am too young for this!  I am a bride-to-be NOT a cancer victim."  The rest of that day is an entire blur for me.  I woke up on Thursday and begin doing research on what I was to expect for the next couple of months.  After gaining knowledge I know without a doubt in my mind that with Nate, as well as family and friends by my side I can get this gunk out of my system and live to be 100!!!  My good friend, Angie Flint, shared a remarkable story of her cute grandma that just celebrated her 93rd Birthday and had breast cancer at age 21.  That gave me more than just hope; it ensured that I got this!  I am a strong girl and when I set my mind out to do something, by darn I do it! 

I felt so bad for Nate yesterday, the poor guy threw up due to the stress of this news.  He got a call early on in the day from my insurance company urging him to ensure I ALWAYS have insurance or else I will be deemed un- insurable.  If I ever let my insurance lapse even for a second I will not be able to get insurance because I am now marked a "cancer victim".  Sounds yucky huh?  I hate that even when I get this out of my body I will forever have to carry with me that I once had it :( 

My darling sister brought me over 18 long stem roses and she was an absolute mess as well.  I assured her that I was going to be absolutely fine!  I am so happy her and I are getting close and having a real relationship now.

Yesterday my darling friend Ann and I went to Whole Foods (because she knows it is my favorite:D) I tried to ask a worker what she suggested I could do in order to maintain an alkaline pH balance due to cancer not being able to grow in that environment.  The second I said the word cancer it was as if I had some communicable disease that she was going to catch.  She looked at me and said, " I cannot discuss anything about your cancer.... blah blah liability".  I was somewhat hurt at her response.  I was like lady you cannot catch what I have; come on now!  Too funny. 

Getting engaged to Nate has been the most exciting thing in the world for me.  And I will definitely not allow cancer to ruin this for me.  The Huntsman Cancer Institute as well as The Universityof Utah is world renown for their care.  I am so grateful I was able to catch this and get it taken care of.  I also feel this has been the best testimony enhancer I could have asked for.  I cannot wait to take out my endowments and to receive extra blessings.  Surprisingly I am also looking forward to my garmets as an extra layer of protection. 

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for my upcoming treatments and surgery.  I meet with the surgeon and plastic surgeon on the 18th of October to begin the necessary steps in removing the cancerous cells. 

Are diamonds a girl's best friend?!

I am sure if I am more excited about Nate getting me a new SBUX cup in the Trente size (gotta love my iced herbal tea)(my old one was pretty nasty from having cinnamon in it); or if having my ring back from being frosted.  HA HA J/K 

B-R-I-D-A-L-S

Winter Rowland took my bridals last night and did a fabulous job!  I am super excited to see em.  We went to my dad's downtown and captured some really great city themed pictures... stay tuned to see em :)  I had The DATC do my hair and nails and they did an awesome job!  My darling mom went with me to help assist and assure it turned out good. 

On Tuesday I had to have a mole removed and biosped :(  so not ideal the day before bridals.  I am happy to have it off though and to be melanoma free.  Cancer is no buens; it has taken far too many lives in my family.  I have no allowed anyone to see my ear cause I kind of resemble a lil elf, he he. 

Unfortunately, in my bridals I had to wear a borrowed ring because mine was still being "sized".  It was kind of fun to get to wear a new ring for a couple of days even though it was like 10 sizes too big and I had to wear it on my index finger (so ya in probably 90% of the pics I am wearing it on the wrong finger).  This morning Dave had my ring finished and I was so excited to see it!  I was in love from first glance!  It looks exactly like the Tiffany's Ring! 

BaBy BLUE EYES!

My fiancee' is hands down the cutest thing ever.  While gathering pictures for our "Remember When" video John's sister sent us some.  I absolutely LOVE this one!!

My fiancee' is so adorable... I am one lucky girl to have him!  Over the weekend him and I went to the Fair after my Bridal Shower at Mo's house.  It was an absolute RIOT!  We ate fried butter, fried energy drinks, turkey (ham) legs, and yummy drinks.  Nate bought me a ton of Scentsys too to make our house smell delicious for Fall. 

52 DAYS!!!!