On September 28th, 2011 I attended court for a company that I am involved with and lent several dollars to. When I was 18 I decided to invest in a company ran by Dee Randall. My mom also deposited a lot of money to ensure I would have a fancy wedding when the time came. Unfortunately, Dee is skum and has been doing very fraudulent things with the investors money. Upon leaving I had received a voicemail from the Dermatologist that removed a mole from my right ear. I figured she was merely calling to state that everything was fine and dandy. As soon as Amy (the doctor) answered the phone I knew that was not the case :( She asked me to have my mom pull the car over and put the phone on speaker phone. She informed us that I do in fact have melanoma cancer. The second she said the word I cancer my brain completely shut off and I disconnected. I have watched my darling grandma and step grandma; as well as my cute Aunt Jo die from cancer. I HATE CANCER!!! And being only 25 hearing that I had it scared me to death. The next couple of hours I had so many questions and truly felt as if little bugs were crawling through out all my cells trying to take over my body. My mom and I already had set appointments to show homes to a million dollar client and of course we rushed up there and tried to not think about the news we had just received. I could not help the whole time from being entirely distracted by opportunities I may miss in my life, etc. I kept thinking, "I am too young for this! I am a bride-to-be NOT a cancer victim." The rest of that day is an entire blur for me. I woke up on Thursday and begin doing research on what I was to expect for the next couple of months. After gaining knowledge I know without a doubt in my mind that with Nate, as well as family and friends by my side I can get this gunk out of my system and live to be 100!!! My good friend, Angie Flint, shared a remarkable story of her cute grandma that just celebrated her 93rd Birthday and had breast cancer at age 21. That gave me more than just hope; it ensured that I got this! I am a strong girl and when I set my mind out to do something, by darn I do it!
I felt so bad for Nate yesterday, the poor guy threw up due to the stress of this news. He got a call early on in the day from my insurance company urging him to ensure I ALWAYS have insurance or else I will be deemed un- insurable. If I ever let my insurance lapse even for a second I will not be able to get insurance because I am now marked a "cancer victim". Sounds yucky huh? I hate that even when I get this out of my body I will forever have to carry with me that I once had it :(
My darling sister brought me over 18 long stem roses and she was an absolute mess as well. I assured her that I was going to be absolutely fine! I am so happy her and I are getting close and having a real relationship now.
Yesterday my darling friend Ann and I went to Whole Foods (because she knows it is my favorite:D) I tried to ask a worker what she suggested I could do in order to maintain an alkaline pH balance due to cancer not being able to grow in that environment. The second I said the word cancer it was as if I had some communicable disease that she was going to catch. She looked at me and said, " I cannot discuss anything about your cancer.... blah blah liability". I was somewhat hurt at her response. I was like lady you cannot catch what I have; come on now! Too funny.
Getting engaged to Nate has been the most exciting thing in the world for me. And I will definitely not allow cancer to ruin this for me. The Huntsman Cancer Institute as well as The Universityof Utah is world renown for their care. I am so grateful I was able to catch this and get it taken care of. I also feel this has been the best testimony enhancer I could have asked for. I cannot wait to take out my endowments and to receive extra blessings. Surprisingly I am also looking forward to my garmets as an extra layer of protection.
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for my upcoming treatments and surgery. I meet with the surgeon and plastic surgeon on the 18th of October to begin the necessary steps in removing the cancerous cells.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Are diamonds a girl's best friend?!
I am sure if I am more excited about Nate getting me a new SBUX cup in the Trente size (gotta love my iced herbal tea)(my old one was pretty nasty from having cinnamon in it); or if having my ring back from being frosted. HA HA J/K
B-R-I-D-A-L-S
Winter Rowland took my bridals last night and did a fabulous job! I am super excited to see em. We went to my dad's downtown and captured some really great city themed pictures... stay tuned to see em :) I had The DATC do my hair and nails and they did an awesome job! My darling mom went with me to help assist and assure it turned out good.
On Tuesday I had to have a mole removed and biosped :( so not ideal the day before bridals. I am happy to have it off though and to be melanoma free. Cancer is no buens; it has taken far too many lives in my family. I have no allowed anyone to see my ear cause I kind of resemble a lil elf, he he.
Unfortunately, in my bridals I had to wear a borrowed ring because mine was still being "sized". It was kind of fun to get to wear a new ring for a couple of days even though it was like 10 sizes too big and I had to wear it on my index finger (so ya in probably 90% of the pics I am wearing it on the wrong finger). This morning Dave had my ring finished and I was so excited to see it! I was in love from first glance! It looks exactly like the Tiffany's Ring!
On Tuesday I had to have a mole removed and biosped :( so not ideal the day before bridals. I am happy to have it off though and to be melanoma free. Cancer is no buens; it has taken far too many lives in my family. I have no allowed anyone to see my ear cause I kind of resemble a lil elf, he he.
Unfortunately, in my bridals I had to wear a borrowed ring because mine was still being "sized". It was kind of fun to get to wear a new ring for a couple of days even though it was like 10 sizes too big and I had to wear it on my index finger (so ya in probably 90% of the pics I am wearing it on the wrong finger). This morning Dave had my ring finished and I was so excited to see it! I was in love from first glance! It looks exactly like the Tiffany's Ring!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
BaBy BLUE EYES!
My fiancee' is hands down the cutest thing ever. While gathering pictures for our "Remember When" video John's sister sent us some. I absolutely LOVE this one!!
My fiancee' is so adorable... I am one lucky girl to have him! Over the weekend him and I went to the Fair after my Bridal Shower at Mo's house. It was an absolute RIOT! We ate fried butter, fried energy drinks, turkey (ham) legs, and yummy drinks. Nate bought me a ton of Scentsys too to make our house smell delicious for Fall.
52 DAYS!!!!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
60 days and counting :D
WELCOME TO THE FAMILY NATE!!
Friday, September 9, 2011
I'M SO EXCITED AND I JUST CAN'T HIDE IT!
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Now this is what you are supposed to be feeling when you are engaged. I am finally not stressed anymore and I truly believe I fully understand what it means to marry Nate. It is not about the big, fancy, "perfect" wedding day... it is about the marriage; Nate and I starting a family of our own. The other day Nate and I went to Lagoon together and while eating some corn on the cob I asked him we could start our own traditions and carry them out every year. He agreed that was a great idea and mentioned how great of a father he was going to be to our Cambria (yes we already named our first born, ha ha) and how much he had to offer her. It was the most amazing thing I have ever heard from him; well besides that he loved and wanted to spend his life with me of course. Hearingg Nate say such beautiful words made me understand the kind of love a father SHOULD have for his daughter. Heck Nate has not even met her and there is already such a large area of Nate's heart saved for his baby girl :) That melts my heart knowing that I am going to give birth to a little girl that is going to be loved so undearly by her father.... she is going to be daddy's little girl for sure. And as much as this excites me I also cannot help but feel a sharp pain in my own heart because of the love my own father has for me. Honestly, the man values money so much that he does not see the big picture. Ever since I got engaged I have been waiting patiently for my dad to come around to becoming a father. It was not until Tuesday night that I realized that waiting on him is like waiting on the chances of winning the lottery (not good). He has blown me off countless times, built my dreams up only to break them far too many times. He even had the guts to say to Nate and I that he did not feel comfortable helping contribute to our wedding because when we call off the wedding he would be out that money.... WTF, what father says that?!?!. I have had enough and writing him off has been the best thing ever! From this day forth I am not wasting my time on people who do not matter.
Today my mother, who happens to be my best friend, and I went off to do wedding preperations. When our minds get rolling insync incredible things are created. My mom has taught me how to take an ordinary item and turn it into the most spectacular pieces. My darling second mother, aka De De, also helped us brainstorm some fun unique ideas. I am SO grateful for these two women in my life and truly owe who I am today to them. God may have given me a turd bucket as a father, but man he made up for everywhere else in my life. I consider myself to be the luckiest girl in the world! My fiancee' is the most incredible man I have ever layed my eyes on and in only 2 months I will be his wife for eternity!!! Some items for the table center pieces.... stay tuned, we are just getting started.
PS I get to pick up my completed invitation tomorrow with insert cards!!!!! They are the most adorable things EVER! Thanks so much for the countless hours Chris and Crystal Ross spent on creating such a beautiful piece for us. Ahhh.... I cannot wait to see it all done!
Now this is what you are supposed to be feeling when you are engaged. I am finally not stressed anymore and I truly believe I fully understand what it means to marry Nate. It is not about the big, fancy, "perfect" wedding day... it is about the marriage; Nate and I starting a family of our own. The other day Nate and I went to Lagoon together and while eating some corn on the cob I asked him we could start our own traditions and carry them out every year. He agreed that was a great idea and mentioned how great of a father he was going to be to our Cambria (yes we already named our first born, ha ha) and how much he had to offer her. It was the most amazing thing I have ever heard from him; well besides that he loved and wanted to spend his life with me of course. Hearingg Nate say such beautiful words made me understand the kind of love a father SHOULD have for his daughter. Heck Nate has not even met her and there is already such a large area of Nate's heart saved for his baby girl :) That melts my heart knowing that I am going to give birth to a little girl that is going to be loved so undearly by her father.... she is going to be daddy's little girl for sure. And as much as this excites me I also cannot help but feel a sharp pain in my own heart because of the love my own father has for me. Honestly, the man values money so much that he does not see the big picture. Ever since I got engaged I have been waiting patiently for my dad to come around to becoming a father. It was not until Tuesday night that I realized that waiting on him is like waiting on the chances of winning the lottery (not good). He has blown me off countless times, built my dreams up only to break them far too many times. He even had the guts to say to Nate and I that he did not feel comfortable helping contribute to our wedding because when we call off the wedding he would be out that money.... WTF, what father says that?!?!. I have had enough and writing him off has been the best thing ever! From this day forth I am not wasting my time on people who do not matter.
Today my mother, who happens to be my best friend, and I went off to do wedding preperations. When our minds get rolling insync incredible things are created. My mom has taught me how to take an ordinary item and turn it into the most spectacular pieces. My darling second mother, aka De De, also helped us brainstorm some fun unique ideas. I am SO grateful for these two women in my life and truly owe who I am today to them. God may have given me a turd bucket as a father, but man he made up for everywhere else in my life. I consider myself to be the luckiest girl in the world! My fiancee' is the most incredible man I have ever layed my eyes on and in only 2 months I will be his wife for eternity!!! Some items for the table center pieces.... stay tuned, we are just getting started.
PS I get to pick up my completed invitation tomorrow with insert cards!!!!! They are the most adorable things EVER! Thanks so much for the countless hours Chris and Crystal Ross spent on creating such a beautiful piece for us. Ahhh.... I cannot wait to see it all done!
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