FoRwArD with FAITH!

On September 28th, 2011 I attended court for a company that I am involved with and lent several dollars to.  When I was 18 I decided to invest in a company ran by Dee Randall.  My mom also deposited a lot of money to ensure I would have a fancy wedding when the time came.  Unfortunately, Dee is skum and has been doing very fraudulent things with the investors money.  Upon leaving I had received a voicemail from the Dermatologist that removed a mole from my right ear.  I figured she was merely calling to state that everything was fine and dandy.  As soon as Amy (the doctor) answered the phone I knew that was not the case :(  She asked me to have my mom pull the car over and put the phone on speaker phone.  She informed us that I do in fact have melanoma cancer.  The second she said the word I cancer my brain completely shut off and I disconnected.  I have watched my darling grandma and step grandma; as well as my cute Aunt Jo die from cancer.  I HATE CANCER!!!  And being only 25 hearing that I had it scared me to death.  The next couple of hours I had so many questions and truly felt as if little bugs were crawling through out all my cells trying to take over my body.  My mom and I already had set appointments to show homes to a million dollar client and of course we rushed up there and tried to not think about the news we had just received.  I could not help the whole time from being entirely distracted by opportunities I may miss in my life, etc.  I kept thinking, "I am too young for this!  I am a bride-to-be NOT a cancer victim."  The rest of that day is an entire blur for me.  I woke up on Thursday and begin doing research on what I was to expect for the next couple of months.  After gaining knowledge I know without a doubt in my mind that with Nate, as well as family and friends by my side I can get this gunk out of my system and live to be 100!!!  My good friend, Angie Flint, shared a remarkable story of her cute grandma that just celebrated her 93rd Birthday and had breast cancer at age 21.  That gave me more than just hope; it ensured that I got this!  I am a strong girl and when I set my mind out to do something, by darn I do it! 

I felt so bad for Nate yesterday, the poor guy threw up due to the stress of this news.  He got a call early on in the day from my insurance company urging him to ensure I ALWAYS have insurance or else I will be deemed un- insurable.  If I ever let my insurance lapse even for a second I will not be able to get insurance because I am now marked a "cancer victim".  Sounds yucky huh?  I hate that even when I get this out of my body I will forever have to carry with me that I once had it :( 

My darling sister brought me over 18 long stem roses and she was an absolute mess as well.  I assured her that I was going to be absolutely fine!  I am so happy her and I are getting close and having a real relationship now.

Yesterday my darling friend Ann and I went to Whole Foods (because she knows it is my favorite:D) I tried to ask a worker what she suggested I could do in order to maintain an alkaline pH balance due to cancer not being able to grow in that environment.  The second I said the word cancer it was as if I had some communicable disease that she was going to catch.  She looked at me and said, " I cannot discuss anything about your cancer.... blah blah liability".  I was somewhat hurt at her response.  I was like lady you cannot catch what I have; come on now!  Too funny. 

Getting engaged to Nate has been the most exciting thing in the world for me.  And I will definitely not allow cancer to ruin this for me.  The Huntsman Cancer Institute as well as The Universityof Utah is world renown for their care.  I am so grateful I was able to catch this and get it taken care of.  I also feel this has been the best testimony enhancer I could have asked for.  I cannot wait to take out my endowments and to receive extra blessings.  Surprisingly I am also looking forward to my garmets as an extra layer of protection. 

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for my upcoming treatments and surgery.  I meet with the surgeon and plastic surgeon on the 18th of October to begin the necessary steps in removing the cancerous cells.